los angeles, city of angels
LA
i’m from nowhere who i am to know you
LA
i’ve got nothing who am i to want you
when i’m feeling this way and i’ve got nothing to offer
LA
not quite the city that never sleeps
not quite the city that wakes
but the city that dreams, for sure
if by dreams you mean nightmares.
LA,
i’m a dreamer but i’m from nowhere
who am i to dream
LA
i’m upset! i have complaints!
listen to me
they told me i was beautiful and i
wasn’t and i wandered down the strip
watched the crowd and dodged the cigarette smoke and the
grabbing hands
at the whiskey
wondering when id learn how to love a person for more than just an hour
LA
i sold my soul for your glamour
but now i cant sleep at night and i
don’t know why
the tip of my nose burning for two seasons
plus i love the pine trees so why did i do that
when i know
it wont last
LA
i picked you because the man who doesn’t love me lives there
LA
i’m pathetic but so are you
i will never come back to you, LA
for you hurt me enough
it wont be my city again until i’m dead
fuck the LA Times!
LAAAAAA!
who am i to need a home when i’ve needed so much more
ached for so much
what i’ve been given i’m not yet sure
i may never know that either until i am dead
for now though
what i do know is i deserve this
i must or it would not happen
can i come home now?
daughter to no one, table for 1
party of hundreds of people i don’t know
where my ex soul lives
i’m so sick of this but
can i come home now?
mother to no one, never will
LA,
you treated me very badly
i’m resentful.
LA!
i know i’m bad but i have nowhere to go
can you let me go home now?
i know i don’t deserve you
not you at your best, in your splendor towering over me
tall and lean, and six foot three
like the eucalyptus trees that sway in my dominion
i don’t deserve you even at your worst
on fire, burning the house down
fists bloody etching the skin raw
soaked your sheets and my white tee shirt
i didn’t deserve such love from you
unlivable
unbreathable
i don’t deserve you at all you see
i promise you wont even notice me
unless you want to notice me
unless you prefer a rambunctious child
in which case i can turn it on too !
i’m good on the stage as you may know
you may know me
so wither way ill fit in just fine
just do nothing
except for perhaps not shaking me out of bed
i’m all yours if you’ll have me
quiet or loud
sincerely yours
let me be with you not just for vacation but for real
and forever
make it a real life, let me be a real life to you
the table will be set, the linens will be pressed
i won’t talk, just ask you how your day was
girlfriend, love, mother, friend, soul mate
i adore you, why cant you open your eyes?
don’t be put off by my quick wordedness
i’m generally quite quiet, or i could be
a meditator
actually ill do very well down
realization center i’m sure