parking lot

there was always a tiny little piece of me inside that knew

somewhere, somehow you deserved better than what i offered you

so i got into my car and left it in park

and closed my eyes though the sky was dark

looked at the numbers id gotten from the ER

and crumpled them up knowing id never call

i didnt feel better and i didnt use the numbers

but i thought that i had been very brave

that i did the best i could sharing to the nurses

tears streaming down my face

in my high school flannel, my feelings at bay

the man i love hates me and still he wants me to stay

as the last persons lights flooded over my windshield

and the night became very quiet i thought

if i go back and i end it

how would i handle driving down that street

and it becoming a distant memory

not reality, no longer sweet

sweet the way it tastes in my mouth to say his name

sweet like when i was young,

driving down those roads before we were done