effortlessly

what they didn’t tell you as a child is that you will spend your whole life trying to replicate the same unconditional happiness you so effortlessly experienced back then and it will never quite feel the same no matter how hard you try

sometimes i think adulthood just means constantly searching for and chasing that joy you so effortlessly felt during your childhood

people look at pictures of their childhood selves and try to find a way back to them

the unfathomable experience i had at 10 and discovering the word nostalgia for the first time and realizing that oh, it will always feel like this

(shaking my 14 year old self) i was so mean to you but i love you, i love you, i love you